i think the name is self explanatory

Thursday, March 04, 2004

i would have if i'd been asked. and that's not an exception i'd make for just anybody. pretty knyky. i wish you much happiness with much love.
ysic,
kayonne

"I wear my sunglasses at night..."
- Wyclef Jean

I finished reading Daniela's Poetry Book tonite. 208 pages of deepness. An autobiography in lyrical form....a privilege really. I feel like I've been reading her diary, which I guess I kinda have and it's been a fascinating glimpse into who she was, who she is, and to an extent where she's going....walked some of her paths tonite...vicariously. And I recognised some of me in them.

*****break******

I got up just now to check out some weird sounds outside. I didn't actually GO out there, just peeped through the peephole and turned on a light. Coward man keep soun' bone, and all the rest of that good stuff. Princess Protector, yeah that's me. Who died and left me in charge? Nobody, but they did go to Target so its just me here with the kiddies. They left with such confidence did the Sister and the Brother-In-Law and I have no idea why. When did I become the responsible adult? Wasn't I JUST one of those little girls asleep in bed, secure in the knowledge that everything was okay and safe because MY Big Bad Mommy was here? Did she feel then that my confidence was misplaced too? Big Bad Auntie. When did I become the responsible adult?!? So I'ma protect the princesses and their playdough dreams until the S. and the B.I.L. come home. Yup. But who's gonna protect me?