Why do people persist in making assumptions about me? About my character, my reasons for doing things, my thoughts, my feelings. Why feel as if you have to come to a conclusion about me? Why feel the need to prove to me that you know me better than I know MYSELF when you don't even have a clue as to who you are? You don't know me. No one does. Not my parents, not my friends, not my relatives, not those who dislike me (though maybe them more than most), nor those who frankly don't care. I'M still trying to figure me out. Apparently I'm a complex person. Who knew.

Don't mistake my quietness for shyness, timidity, fear. Occasionally it means those things, more often tho it just means that I have nothing I feel like saying to you.

Don't try to tell me who I am.

Don't painstakingly set out to school me on things I already know. Ask first.

I may disagree with you. Give me plausible reasons as to why you think my stance is incorrect....then move on. It's not up to you to change my mind. You don't have to mould me into the person that I am to become. Relax, I'm releasing you from that responsibility.

I'm not trying to feign enigmacy (neologism in every sense of the word), I'm not trying to elevate myself in my mind or anyone else's. I'm just speaking from experience and frustration.

No one really knows me except the God who created me. Please try to keeep that in mind.

And no, that's not why I made that last statement. And that's definitely not how I came to that conclusion. I am dumb, no doubt. But I'm not as dumb as you think. It's just not possible.

That's not true

None of my brothers friends have ever crossed over, and I've come to the conclusion that none of them ever will.

OK, so after an extended leave of absence I have finally returned. I'm about to go have my quiet time, but I figured that first I'd let all you lovelies (yes, all two of you!) in on what my day's gonna be like today.

Fancy-Shmancy To-Do-List:
1) Quiet Time. Vital for my spiritual growth. Maybe not for you, but it definitely is for me. Now for the rest in no particular order:
- Decipher project requirements for Hi-Speed Networks class.
- Attempt to do project (that's due today, and which I've been struggling over since last night).
- Go to class
- Ask if I can give it in on Wednesday.
- Get OPT stuff copied
- Mail stuff in poste haste (or however it is taht youspell that)
- Work on Senior Project
- Talk with Senior Project Advisor who also happens to be Hi-Speed Networks professor. sigh.
- Get PIN number
- Check up on status of Grad class. If it's still not showing up, seek out honors dept.
- Since I've apparently decided (kinda) to apply for grad school, I'ma need to talk to Anderson and find one other professor who'd write me a worthy letter of recommendation (Dr. Mack? yeah right.).
- When is (was) the Purdue thing?
- Oh right, practise for GREs. It cost too much to do twice, and way too much to ignore.
- Oi. Have to have EWF meeting. I forgot. Therefore need to :
- do up GEEE (Global Engineering Education Exchange) petitions (to be handed out?)
- buy fundraising candy for dissemination at the meeting. While over there, buy phonecard for the calling of the aunt.
- work out the fundraising finances (all fundraising monies go to Kaysi at the week's end?)
- find out about cellphone thing
- make up agenda for the meeting
- Send out reminder meeting email. Or maybe make phone calls. That may be more effective.
- Stop by Dr. Hargrove's just to say hi. Apparently he's encouraged by such things.
- ESOC meeting (Engineering Societies Organizational Council, or some such thing. I forget.)
- Bridge design Meeting. Want to get design done tonight, so can start STAADing up the place by tomorrow. Someone in the group needs to start working on the technical paper too, see if we can have it done by Thurs (primary objective) so can start on the powerpoint.
- Call Auntie Loris. Find out about Thanksgiving.
- Email brother re: house. Want to find out what's going on with that and how I can help.
- Call other people to see how they're doing. Mayhaps Patrick, Ike and/or Meghan tonite. I want to make sure Meghan's okay since I didn't see her yesterday.

I think that's it, but I probably forgot sumn. Oh yeah - eat, breathe, and sleep - tho the sleep part is highly debatable. The eat part WILL be happening tho. Can't be missing meals...This list is beginning to look kinda handy. Maybe not fancy per se, but I think there's definitely a touch of shmancy up in there somewhere. I think I'll print myself a copy. Peace out, I'm off to tackle my day...wish me luck, send up prayers. I'm off!

Actually, what I MEANT to write was POST numero uno. Foreshadowing of things to come?
Maybe. I'm hungry.

hmmm...interesting...POET NUMERO UNO!